This poem is preceded by a blank page. From Bottle in the River. |
Middle Child Was nearing the bottom of a long page, so into the writing that I was writing, I didn’t know how I came to it so fast. And when the last word of the last line was in the middle of a long sentence, I ripped to the next page without thinking. Little did I know, at least at the time, that I had skipped an entire page— left it alone there, blank, forgotten— How lonely that empty page must have felt? How ripped off and undeserving its plight, sitting there ignored, all by itself? And who does it blame? It boldly blames God, the omnipotent, cruelly aligning the universe, coldly. He purposefully caused this Poet to skip the first step, to skip the licking of my long dry fingers, only to torture the lonely white page. And yet here, weeks later, I have to hope that this page will grasp its place and know its position, and perceive its chance for unique contribution. For that blankness— such an appealing blankness— speaks so spaciously. "There is power in impotence," it says, inviting me . . . some weeks later, to ponder it so much longer than I have the Poems prior and after. And on it I wonder if I should not a picture depict, or write a long Poem in red ink upon it. Maybe a Poem about my sister at home. But I, the hand of God, leave it alone, blank and beautiful, to behold its place! It’s here. It’s now! It’s ready, somehow. |