Not alone

NA

Your voice breaks my heart.
The counter is hard on my bottom as I eat the sour dough bread you brought home
I dip it in honey for my evening meal
You brought home nothing but bread and said you brought home food
Thank you for the bread honey but how can I make a satisfying meal out of bread and honey?
Sourdough bread at that. I don't like bread but I eat it anyway because you brought it home.
You don't know that I don't like it because I don't tell you because I love you.

Your voice breaks my heart as you talk to your LOTRO friends.
LOTRO stands for Lord of the Ring Online
Yesterday you said something that hurt me very much
Yesterday you basically told me that you don't want me sitting next to you when you are playing the game
But I know you don't want me there so that you can IM a certain friend in privacy
Yesterday you broke my heart
But I don't tell you because I love you

If I had walked back out there instead of retreating, I would have spoken words that might have hurt you
I would have said that I don't like you talking with that certain friend
I would have said that I don't like the way she flirts with you
And you flirt back
Yes, you were flirting because I know flirting
I'm flirtacious
I would have basically said that I don't trust you with her
But I don't tell you because I love you

I asked you once what NA stood for and you told me it stood for 'not actually'
However, I see the way you use it in a sentence and I know that I am not retarded grammar wise
You should know that too
When you used it in a sentence, it translated to 'not alone'.
Should I ask you again about it?
It'll give you the perfect oportunity to lie to me and accuse me of not trusting you
Which I don't.
Not with this ________
The reader can insert an insult word in relations to a married woman who sends lingerie shots to a taken man
I would rather not turn this poem into a dirty one
And there isn't a word that can fully sum up what I think about her

You broke my heart and you made me very sad
But I love you
So I am sitting in the other room, the bedroom
Where you don't touch me like you used to touch me
Like my skin was the softest of silk and you contemplated how my skin got so soft
I'm giving you your space
Even though it kills me
Even though it hurts so much
I give you your space
Because I love you

I just wanted you to know that you really hurt me the other day
I just wanted to let you know that you broke my heart