Scream

All at once I can feel a rush surging through my body.
No Love.
No Regrets.

Not crying yet, my heart pounds almost as fast as the time it takes for my fingers to reach for the glittering, silver, blade.
Calm.
Pacing.
Loud.
SCREAM.
All at once my voice starts to elevate, growing with fear and volume.
My head is pounding, as if some kind of convulsion were pulsing through my mind.
All at once everything starts to spin and the world wanders away from me.
Unfortunately I didn’t find the world again any time soon.
Tears come.
Red Tears.
Crimson Red Tears.
More and more Red elevating and growing like my voice begins dripping away all over.
Staining my eyes.
Staining my life.
Causing a little piece of me to die inside every time I do it.