A son's thoughts after failing to keep a promise |
I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the cold you caught that I did too. I’m sorry for missing the moment it turned into the flu. I’m sorry for your daughter taking over the reins I’m sorry for the ice that runs through her veins. I’m sorry she canceled your moment to share I’m sorry only once per month she did your hair. I’m sorry for the fighting you had to hear I’m sorry for keeping the distance when your future was unclear I’m sorry for riding in the car that day I’m sorry I let Karen and Tim put you away. I’m sorry your faith in me was not very strong I’m sorry for failing in righting what they did so wrong. I’m sorry for the doctors, the nurses,for them all I’m sorry for not handling correctly Tim’s call. I’m sorry he lied to you and then cowardly fled I’m sorry for you lying in that cold hospital bed I’m sorry that you chose in that Hell hole to stay I’m sorry that my home was not fit nor safe anyway I’m sorry that my efforts of comfort went mostly unheard I’m sorry the stroke jumbled now all of your words I’m sorry for the rashes, the staff who we all were thieves I’m sorry you didn’t know how deeply I grieve I’m sorry if ever you felt afraid, sad or alone I’m sorry they chose to put you in that home. I’m sorry if even one tear of yours did ever fall I’m sorry I missed even one of your late calls. I’m sorry that Thanksgiving was not all it could be I’m sorry that at Christmas in your eyes good-bye I did see I’m sorry your last rights in pain you had to hear I’m sorry only five from eight was all that was near I'm sorry for lacking in status, for other's I'd please I'm sorry for failing so much so often with obvious ease I’m sorry your last day with me was chaotic or bad I’m sorry for losing all the faith and trust once I had I'm sorry for you being confident in them but not me I'm sorry your life turned into their sick tragedy I’m sorry you didn’t get to see the two of us wed I’m sorry you died in that ICU’s cold bed. I'm sorry your words to me understood Forgive me mom I did all that I could. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "Letter to my family" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Damn you Tim and Karen for not doing enough. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |