Calm water

The man I see,
And the man I want to see
Are two different people today
So it’s not fair for him

Why am I staying so long?
Why can’t I just leave?

There’s nothing here,
Just passing time grows near
My heart remains empty
As he tries to move close
My mind continues racing

But is this what I want?
I could hate you for how you make me feel
Because I believe he is what I really want

You consume every part of me
You’ve taken my heart from my soul
Now what remains of me?
Lonely and cold

I have been trying to find the other half of me
while your waters remain so calm
I haven’t been able to grasp it
I can’t believe I felt so strong

about someone who haunts my heart and soul
left a love no one can fill
and the perfect pieces to my puzzle
no one can fill