I still feel the same way

I keep fighting it, but I find myself trying hard to avoid him. I keep pining over him, wanting him, hoping i can catch a glimpse.. but i know its not me he wants.. its always one of my friends..I'm trying hard to resist.. but years of unanswered questions keeps grabbing at me, I cant shake the feeling that all this time that him ... and I share the same feeling...not ever giving me the chance, he already had made our decision..

i don't know how much more i can stand it, I don't know if the next time i see him, i just may say it just to get it off my chest... the first time we met.. till this very day.. when I see you i still feel the same way.