Thoughts like Ballroom dancers

I always wonder why i can't exspress myself,

why i lie awake at night

every night my heart beats fast, i don't know why

i lie awake as i turn off the light

my thought twirling in graceful circles

like magnificant dancers in a ballroom.



My thoughts dance slower when i think about you;

i recall every detail you have given me,

your style, voice, thoughts about things

how you look and how i see you...

when my thoughts about you are done...

the rest swirl by and go back to their own unique place.



it takes so long to fall asleep,

sometimes i fail to do so.

i wonder if i will ever meet the real you, or the real me.

im healing from my past, and seeing things in a new light.

each time i pass my brother, i still have that look

filled with sadness and we both tihnk the same thoughts

but as we walk away we hurt from the fight,

yet feel happy that we are both surviving and thriving.