Drowning

Drowning was always my greatest fear, but now I reconsidered myself. It seemed to lose this feeling would be even worse. I finally felt alive, and now I would never be able to live without it. I had awoken from my misery.
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She took my hand in hers, pressing our palms together. The warmth causing my heart beat to increase. Staring out over the water, I was unable to concentrate on the beautiful sunset before me. My mind was consumed with something more beautiful; the girl standing beside me. With light accenting her every aspect, I had never dreamed of something so radiant. Her hair washing down her back in golden streaks, her face marked with the sky blue eyes I had always loved. She was an angel, and I was her hopelessly in love servant.

She delicately untwined our fingers and stepped toward the edge of the pier, causing me to gasp with the idea of her being so close to the edge. A slight snicker escaped her, and then she sat down, letting her legs dangle over the water. I was still until she beckoned me it come sit beside her. Carefully, I placed myself beside her, always afraid of doing something wrong. The water sloshed beneath us, making a very peaceful sound. The rest of the world was silent.

We breathed in stillness for a lifetime, or what seemed to be one. I was scared to break the air with my voice, scared she would find it disruptive, even though she never seemed to dislike my actions. I had brought her here for a purpose though, one that I had been long awaiting. My decision to tell her had been in such high debate for so long, I was amazed I could be so sure now. It had just clicked, in one sudden second I had known it was true, and from then on there had been no wondering. Doubt was no longer an issue; my feelings had become set in stone.

Her reaction was the only thing that frightened me. So many ideas of how she could look at it shot though my head, all of them stabbing my much too vulnerable heart. Her acceptance was the only thing that mattered. I had been forced to shove aside the idea of what rejection would mean. It was the only way to gain the courage to tell her.

An infinity of thoughts absorbed my mind, but my soul reacted off impulse.

“I love you.”