Not Happy But Not Sad

I am not happy.

I am not happy.

But I am not sad.

But I am not sad.



The pain deep down in my heart,

And these feelings somewhere between,

These are driving me mad!,

I am not happy.

But I am not sad.



I have thought about it,

I have dreamt about it,

I have spent many sleepless nights on my bed.

I am not happy.

But I am not sad.



Sometimes I think about it

This chronic pain and suffering.

When o when this is goin to end?

I am not happy.

But I am not sad.



As I reflect upon it.

I think, do i deserve this?

And I think too, was I that bad?

I am not happy.

But I am not sad.