If You Only Knew

My heart feels hollow.
My throat is tight.
Press the knife deeper to take the pain away.
Your presence is scarce, yet you linger in spirit.
Hear my cry and hinder my thoughts.
Bore your face from my mind
With an ice pick or hammer.
As long as it’s dead.
I’m defeated!
Is it not enough?
Feel the blood drip from my head.
You’re like a house of mirrors.
I never know what I’m looking at.
If you only knew how deep my love ran!
I wanted to believe.
You made me believe!
Faith has abandoned me.
I thought you knew where you were lucky.
You told me you loved me.
You told me you cared.
You said you’d never hurt me.
Fuck you!
Your lies become you.
You threw me away.
I can’t pick up these pieces.
If you only knew.
You’ve put me in my final hour.
Crimson tears stream down my face.
Now I’m dizzy.
The room is blurry and the light is dimming.
I wonder if I’ll dream.