Clear & Blurry

Its clear to see when everything is blurry
  I lay here feeling free and uncaring
  Uncaring if ill ever be understood
  Laying here with the blood pouring from my body
  The room spins yet things are still clear
  Then I remember the pain
  Pain from a mom who beats me
  A mom who doesn't care for me
  She yells and demanded me to clean the house
  Why me? Why was I put here for her to beat on?
  I want my dad back
  He's the best
  He left me here with her
  I dont hate him for it nor do I blame him
  I want to join him so bad
  Please let me go and be with him He's the only one that cared for me
  Well other then this blade