Evertorn

I sit in this room looking away...
away from this chaos i stare and i pray...
longing to go with signs all around...
my welcome is worn i am a byword now..
those that i know do use and destroy..
my emotions are tread on i am but ur toy...
i am disgusted and distraught at who i have let in..
my walk compromised reproducing in sin..
i have not the strength to live perfectly..
try to set an example yet it is soo hard for me...
those things i let in pull me apart...
and the one that i love has not room in her heart...
the rain it now pours from the clear sky that once was.
a reflection of my heart evertorn from above...
the torrents of emotion i absorb from you all..
pouring out from my soul on unheaded ears does it fall..
shedding of torment accrued and contained..
as all of your blackness washed out with the rain...

JL 7/1/09