Missing you is Killing me

Tears streaked down my cheek
Soaking my lifeless face
A numb sensation
Pierce through my heart
Until I couldn't feel anymore
Nothingness ran through my veins
But even then,
My mind was still free to wander its lonely thoughts
I think of you.
And somehow, as I recreate you in my mind
I feel sorrow sinking deeply into my soul
Farther and farther
Until I couldn't imagine it could drown me anymore
Yet, still, it depends
Touching a nerve with a whisper of an empty pain
I gasp for air
The sudden break of my lungs, drain the emptiness
From my veins, it no longer protected me
I was forced to face
The Agony
Alone.
As It touches farther through my body
Sliding into my heart
It strikes
Like a cobra, a snap of it's unexisting hands was all it took
For a cry to rip through my lips
A cry of pure suffering
I curl, tightly
As if I did It couldn't hurt me anymore
And I could keep myself together
And as I am balled, I think of you once more
How can something so sweet and beautiful be this painful?
People tell me to forget you and move on
But how can I when you've become a part of myself?
Daring to think of forgetting you
Slashes at my spirits and rips another piece of them apart
I couldn't imagine another torture that would put this to shame
But, I don't stop thinking of you
Thinking of how I last saw you,
I cried in your arms as we embraced for our farewell
And that's when I felt a part of me, stay behind with you
Gripping at the memory
Refusing to let it go, no matter how badly it stung
I can't.
Let you.
Go.
Trust me when I tell you,
I miss you with everything I have left aching in my body
Desiring to see you, to hear you, to sense you
Slowly, again, numbness fills me
Silencing The Agony, pushing it aside
Until I can no longer hold the barrier up
And the wash of tortured cries begin again
At last, one last tear is shedded
And I fall into a dark slumber of empty dreams