How to Regret

I am stricken with a cold shoulder, moaning hysterical in a room of nature, barriers steal its passion,
Insobriety creates raccoon eyes and the night expresses drunken words murdering truth,
Reflections of Paladin roam many thoughts, when does anything really end is a good question as it’s imagined,
Feel warmth that is unnatural, now ends up unknown in madness, humiliation, faux pa, poverty
Stars have dimmed; sun takes the moon without mercy,
Am worn, torn, and frightfully foreign,
Feel cheated, mistreated, kind of conceited,
Genius character unwinding anything but affectionate ideas to know and keep forever,
Love is not a four-letter word,
Did not want to lie to, use or abuse,
I just wanted to know you in a different tune, a diamond from the unfathomable seven seas,
But now feel sorry,
Hear notes of release unwelcome.