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I'm comfortable because this is how it's supposed to be. The seat in front of me is far to close, my legs are already pinned when the lady in front of me decides to take a nap pushing the seat farther back jamming my knee and I scream out within myself. I give a smile of dissatisfaction to the man sitting next to me when I pry my leg loose; I keep quiet though not wanting to rant. He doesn't deserve that, he is only a stranger. Truthfully he does have a bad temper and would most likely revel in my own admitted disgust but that isn't a way to get to know someone. My legs, yes still bothering me, it's probably the worst. The way I fold and shift them to avoid the napping woman, leave them tense and strained. I always have the fleeting thought wondering if I could get a blood clot being there so cramped like this. Thank you to whichever news magazine show I witnessed this report on. But enough with the leg cramps. They can be dealt with simply; it's a mind game. Even though I'm tired and can't focus I must always attempt to read my book. A chapter or two is good before I don't know what I'm reading. But when I stop I discover the cramp in my neck from looking down at to steep an angle. Of course we all know I can't hold the book further ahead of me because the lady in front of me is tired, she needed to lay her seat back. A cramped situation becomes tighter. I feel like Indiana Jones. I let the book go rather then trying to struggle with the sleepiness. Tomorrow I'll have to reread what I don't remember. How did character X get from point A to point B? Stiffly rotating my neck, half believing still that this will work out the kinks. Of course now that my vision has returned level, my personal air conditioner blows accordingly over the surface of my tired eyes. The sapping air makes them dry, more tired, but I'll never fall asleep in here. So my mind wanders to the current culprit of discomfort. The little air conditioner, it could never be adjusted to where the cool air keeps me from boiling but not irritating my drying eyeballs. I think of all the people a couple of hours ago trying to get them to work for twenty minutes before realizing it wasn't going to happen. 'They don't work during taxi' I'd like to shout. When we take off they blast to life full of jet streaming air from the fully turned nozzle. It leaves them uncomfortably cold. It's a mad dash for adjustments. I sigh. I resort to what this kind of element leaves you always resorting to. Thinking about things. Nothing imparticular. The blue backdrop of a readless ocean is perfect for the unthinking thoughts. It's weird really, I'm not uncomfortable. Probably because I know this is how it's supposed to be. Cramped neck and blood clotting legs. The woman ahead of me is taking a nap against my sake even though she'll never fully fall asleep here. Trying to ignore the angered stranger two inches beside me for five hours. Dry scratchy eyes from a stop and go a/c and no Clear Eyes to get the red out. I'm comfortable with all of it. Because it's how it's suppose to be. The moment I become uncomfortable. You guessed it, when all of that is gone. The pilot's overly calm voice is a bad sign. Worse are the suspended yellow cups with little baggies hanging out the back-end. Even though the bag does not inflate, oxygen is flowing to the mask. Good thing I'm squeezed in as tight as possible now I won't have to make any of the tucking procedures. In the last moments the lights flicker more rapidly and the strangers scream more harshly. The blue backdrop has become my cold icy world. Filling every fabric of the one that was once there. The cramped comfortable world has broken away around me. I wonder if the oxygen is still flowing to the mask as I futilely hold on to the air I had consumed before the crash, before the water. Seconds ago it was screams and flashing lights. Things have changed though as usual. Now I'm in silent darkness. I escaped the comfortable cramped world and moved passed the icy world of no air. The waves gently lull me nearly to sleep. I don't think the water wants any survivors tonight. My last efforts to get passed it brought me here to the top. Now it tries to put me in a fatal rest. My eyes hurt; I wonder if the bright light cutting through the darkness is godsend or hellsend. No matter, the pain is bearable since they are bringing me aboard a more comfortably cramped world of a sea fairing vessel. I will live for another day. But my world has changed. |