Confused

A year of hell falls upon the already tortured slave of love, long expired, gone are the winds that blew the flame now weak and lame I shake as I pour a fine wine to rest the demons and unpleasant thoughts of a past that I thought would last.



How does one get to a place where your stuck like a cliff hanger either choice will reveal weakness and lost. You are now realizing the choice may have been poor but the consequence of such will leave you wounded and sore for the many years to follow. The damage has been done,



Oh no, one cannot return because their attributes of pride, selfishness and determination  without compromise you will continue to be in a state of confusion and disarray for a countless time, wish you the best my dear lonely follow companion the path chosen

looked bright and full of promise, unfortunately you had picked the deceptive well groomed path the slightly unkept was reality.



Why we bring this to bare upon ourselves is unknown, but by gosh I hope I can push through until the end so I don't end up like others, troubled, insane or worse  no more.



One must cling to a group of other survivors for spiritual support and salvation  so we may again emerge hopefully experiencing a lesson we shall never forget or repeat,  a shield of wisdom against future blame for a relationship that initially was hot, warm, compassionate, and yet ended incomplete, without check nor balance a recipe for disaster and ending without clear explanation, nor care, unfortunately life is a fake, however, I did my best to show genuine interest and respect somehow without clear transmission, use the very words I write to soothe my pain I hope and pray today.



One day all will confess to honesty and disclosure, lives will will no longer allow lies and deception, only truth will provide light, food, health and life's torch will burn brightly and forever, all will think "how can it be", but the Divine can be so clever and perfectly clear. One would be sickened to have asked. Thou God will provide peace.



I ask you to heal the pain, close the void, and protect and provide directions to the one that needs it most. She or I you decide!



Sincerely,



Wayne