I won't cry this time .

I wont cry this time .
I hvae been through this so many times before .
Sure it stings.
And sure it hurts .
But why waste tears on something that won't change .
I could cry over something I know will never be .
Or I can stand up strong .
Today when someone asks me how I am doing .
I'll lie . I'm fine thanks .
I'm tired of people feeling bad for me .
I wish everyone didn't look at me with soroow in my eyes .
I am ok . I promsie you .
this time it will be beliveable. Ill put on a smile .
For you're sake .
I'l try to move on . But I know I won't .
This time no one will know but me .
I wont let people say Im sorry for you're mistakes .
I'm sick of wating around for you're every move .
Truthfully I am so much better with out you .
For once I will feel free .
For once I will be able to stand on my own.
I may stumble a few times on the way .
But I will grow stronger .
This time is diffrent this time I will be alone .
I will not wear my heart on my sleve .