A CURSE, OR A BLESSING IN DISGUISE

"His eyes were awash with a blend of love, passion and confusion. A mix
of emotion that would drive any man to full forced insanity. How could
it be that the one true desire in his heart could make him feel so low,
so small, so worthless."



It's a common ache that controls the lives of so many. Everyday it
curses the world, a feeling unlike any other. If it is the sole reason
for existence, the main purpose in life. The one thing that every man,
woman and child faces, staring them directly in the eye with no fear
and no mercy. Then why does it haunt us so. Why is there no handbook,
no instruction manual, no step by step structural explanation to how it
works, allowing us to control it instead of it controlling us. Blowing
us off course into no mans land. Keeping us awake after everything else
has come to an abrupt halt. It has the power of stopping in a man in
his tracks to think about the possibilities of what could be, day
dreaming that someday that dream would become a reality, all of his
fears drifting away into the distance as if they were never there.



The harsh reality is there is no handbook, there never has been and it
is almost a certainty that there never will be. How can anyone explain
or instruct something that cannot be understood. There is no theory, no
scientific reasoning or religious beliefs that can aid us in the
direction of understanding and that is the reason it keeps up at night,
tossing and turning with a continuous flow of uncontrollable thought.
It strikes fear into the soul of everybody that experiences it. How
could it not? An uncontrollable emotion that cannot be chosen how and
when it grasps them. No menu to choose from, no option to pick again
and no reset button when things go wrong.



The emotion of love is a powerful force that should not be
underestimated, not taken for granted. It can strike at any time. There
is no cure for love, no antidote to overpower the lust from cupid's
arrow that is pumped so furiously with every beat from the infected
heart. But, as much as it is feared, it is welcomed. To millions of
people all around the world it brings unlimited happiness, filling
their lives with a purpose. Enabling them to share their experiences,
their worries and doubts with the one they love, the one they believe
they were destined to be with. The beat of two separate hearts
coinciding as one. A perfect match. A unity of souls together for an
eternity.


To those people love is a blessing, a gift from god. For two
people to share such an emotion, such passion and love for each other,
it's truly magical. Making them feel invincible as though nothing can
touch them, as though nothing else matters. They have found what some
people search a lifetime for. An ongoing cry to share their happiness
with someone and for the feeling to be reciprocated, which is the
cruelest most terrifying part about love. Reciprocation! What do you do
when the most powerful emotion causes you to fall for someone and they
do not feel the same way. With no instruction manual or troubleshooter
to tell you what to do next, what can you do? The further you pursue
the road to unrequited love, the longer the lonely walk back becomes.
Between walking there and walking back, you stop. Completely stop! The
decision to keep walking or return to choose another path is a painful
one. A heartbreaking floury of failure, rejection and worthlessness
flows through the body of the undeserving victim of love. How can it be
that something directly linked to eternal happiness and a feeling of
purpose cause so much pain?



Accepting rejection is the hardest dilemma that is encountered during a
persons lifetime. A situation only offering two equally undesirable
options. Walk away from the one you love, the one you believe is the
person you have been searching for, or continue walking down the road
that has no end, no happily ever after. Just continuous rejection. Is
it any wonder why love is openly feared, causing trembling earthquakes
of doubt thorough our minds. Terrified to commit to something that
might one day destroy our life, demolishing the very foundations of our
existence, making people believe they cannot fulfill the purpose of
live, to find their sole mate and recreate life. To give the next
generation a chance to experience love. To feel the pain or happiness
that love can bring to their lives.



Love will never be understood, nor will it ever be controlled, only
accepted. Whether it brings pain or happiness. Embrace it, Enjoy it.
There is no alternative for love, no escape from love. So be ready for
it because it takes hold of us all.



A creative piece by Dale Fenton.