I wish I could tell you

I wish I could tell you
you are always on my heart
and on my mind
and in my prayers.

No matter what you or do,
I will always love you.

You break my heart,
but then you cause it t fly.
It always ends the same,
but every time my hopes soar higher than they did before,
making the crash more devastating each time.

But I survive, the Lord sustains me,
and I am ready to try again.

The song says, “I can’t wait forever,
even though you want me to,”
but I will wait as long as I can,
whether you want me to or not.

I know that you need your space,
and I know you need your time,
so I just sit and wait
for you to make up your frickin’ mind.

If there ever comes a time
when I don’t have you in my life,
I don’t know what I’d do.
If I have anything to say about it,
I’ll never have to find out.

Maybe I’m crazy
to put so much hope
into something that may never happen.
Maybe that’s what the cliché
“I’m crazy for you”
really means.

What might I miss,
while I’m caught in this fantasy?
Maybe everything,
but maybe nothing.

Maybe it’s not a deranged dream
and this really is where I’m supposed to be.