That Night

“That Night”

That night was horrid
Why then?
Why that night?
You could have told me sooner
Why tell me through text?
Tell me to my face
I let you in because I thought you cared
But when I find out the truth
You tell me that way?
“Go to bed early, especially if you’re sick.”
You say
Why? I know why now
So you could tell me that
Yes I get it
Even if I act confused
You can’t see through me
That’s your fault
I’m edgy, bitchy
And even more emotional
I’m a fucking suicidal bitch
If you didn’t know
No emotional attachments huh?
I’ll give you an emotional attachment
Don’t come running back to me
I won’t come back to you
I don’t care what you say
Or what you do
It doesn’t matter anymore
I’ll block you out of my memory
Be cold to you
No matter what you say, no matter what you do
I don’t know how you did it
How you pulled me in
But you did
I never should have let you
You wanted sex
A physical relationship
I cried over you
I cried more than once
I never cry, especially over guys
I don’t want to hate you
But that’s what my bodies saying
You decision was made
I respect that
But that night
You cold have told me sooner
I’m beginning to feel the pain
Worse than with him
I’ll never trust you
Never again
Ever
I have no trust for you
You broke my heart
Unstable already
The cold short talks we had
I understand now
That pain from that night
It will never leave
That awful horrid night