A poem for a friend who is missed

I don’t need the sun
To make a rainbow
On a rainy day you smile
And your colors paint the sky
And you laugh like a lullaby

Yeah you colored my world and it’s hard to take
What it looks like today
You left me in shades of grey

You don’t need wings
To be my guardian angel
On a cloudy day you hold me
And your love envelopes me
And I remember what you told me

Yeah you held me tight and said it all would be fine
That I could make this climb
That it would just take some time

I need to feel you near me. I need to know you hear me tonight.

There is one star out every night
I can see despite the city light
I know it’s you, shining up there like you always do
I don’t know if I believe in heaven in the sky
I don’t know where you go after you die
But I know I tasted heaven while you were still alive

You needed more than I could be
To save you from your pain
On that day you disappeared
I couldn’t stop your tears
I couldn’t shield your fears

You said there was no reason to stay alive
You’d be just one more suicide
But it wasn’t just you who died

I need you now
More than ever before
Today I sit here alone and scared
Only wishing you were here
Only wishing you could hear

That you colored my world beautiful
Made my life a musical
You made the world so magical

You brought the world to life around you
Then threw your own life away
I still don’t understand why
But I see your star in the sky
And I never forget you
You were the warmth that embraced me
Your smile bright as the sun
It’s too bad I didn’t get to see it much
But I loved it when you were around
You were my comforter in the middle of the night
You were the safety I found nowhere else
You taught me to trust
And you let me be myself

I need to feel you near me. I need to know you hear me.