Not This Time (Begging)

WITH EVERY SPOKEN WORD you drive me away
the putrid and vile words CUT MY HEART
as the pieces fall to the ground
YOU SCREAM I hate you, HATE YOU

NOW HERE WE ARE AGAIN
LIKE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE
I AM BEGGING YOU FOR YOU MERCY
YOU SAY YOU'RE SORRY
I BELIEVE YOU TIME AND TIME AGAIN
BUT NOT THIS TIME, THIS TIME YOU'RE THE ONE LEAVING BLOODY AND BEATEN

every punch you throw REMINDS ME OF THE LIFE I wish I had
i am just a stain, ONE YOU CAN'T REMOVE
like the scars I have learned TO WEAR SO WELL
always hiding behind this crimson mask, THAT YOU HAVE CREATED

not this time, not this time
Not This Time, Not This Time
NOT THIS TIME

HERE WE ARE AGAIN
LIKE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE
I AM BEGGING YOU FOR YOU MERCY
YOU SAY YOU'RE SORRY
I BELIEVE YOU TIME AND TIME AGAIN
BUT NOT THIS TIME, THIS TIME YOU'RE THE ONE LEAVING BLOODY AND BEATEN

THIS TIME, you are the one leaving
THIS TIME, you are the one that will hurt
I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU
you have LOST YOUR POWER OVER ME
WITH EVERY PUNCH I throw harder and harder
watching your blood flow WASHING AWAY MY PAIN
EACH OF YOU BROKEN TEETH heals another scar
every open wound THAT I CREATE ON YOUR FACE
closes another wound IN MY HEART
your screams SATISFY MY LONGING FOR RETRIBUTION

HERE WE ARE AGAIN UNLIKE NONE OF THE TIMES BEFORE
NOW YOU'RE THE ONE BEGGING FOR MY FORGIVENESS
BUT NOT THIS TIME
Gary "Xqsnr" Jackson