Hate

Darkness engulfs you
You wish you had a blade
Take across your skin
The blood tears
Running down your arm
You miss the feeling
You miss letting go
How did I get here
It was your entire fault
You made me this way
I can’t escape
It’s like a nightmare
That keeps repeating itself
You’re the monster
I’m the damsel in distress
Except no prince comes to save me
I have to fight this alone
Nobody can fight this
Nobody but me
You’re a demon
Evil to the core
I hate you
I’ve never hated
Till you came along
Why did you do this
I was just a child
You were close to an adult
Did you feel big
Did you feel like a man
Taking advantage of a child
You killed my innocence
Took it right from me
How could you
You were supposed to -
Be my big brother
But you weren’t
You make my life so difficult
Every day is a challenge to me
Every time I close my eyes
You are right there
Taunting me
Telling me I’m no good
Nobody would believe me
It’s my entire fault
Why won’t you leave me alone
I was nothing but nice to you
I was a child
No child should have to endure
That type of punishment
How could you
What did I ever do to you
I hope one day
You rot in hell
I hope you live a nightmare
Now and when you die
I know I should forgive you
But I can’t
I still hate you too much
Do you know
You make my life
A living hell
I do have good days
When I can block you out
But you always come rearing back
I can’t stand you
I hate you
You piece of white trash
You asshole bastard
I want to get rid of you
I want the nightmares to stop
Most of all I want my innocence back
But I can’t have it can I
You took it
It will never me mine again
I took the blade to try
To forget you
You made me addicted
Do you know what I go through
All because of you
Do you know the pain
All that you caused me
How can you live
With knowing what you did
Are you happy
I hope you aren’t
I hope your life
Is a living hell
Just like mine
When you come
Into my thoughts
And my nightmares
I would never wish bad things
But I sure the hell
Don’t wish you good
I hate you and hopefully
I can one day
Get over the hate
And love myself
Enough to take
Over my life again