A helpless soul searching for the one escape, yet finding her sought after goal impossible |
I lie awake Praying for it to come Wishing for it to take me Yearning for its arms to embrace me But they don’t. Yet another day passes The seconds ticking by agonizingly Each tick of the clock is like a thousand bullets pelting my skin Excruciating Torturous I wish they were real. The usual sleepless night But this time it’s different I can feel its shadow cross me I await its solid form eagerly Yet it disappears in my most hopeful moment I feel hallow. Another day has gone by The same as the last My shadow’s memory envelops my mind And I am consumed. My need is unbearable Every night my shadow teases me Getting closer every time Then leaving when I am all too comfortable. An all too sunny morning But it means nothing Until my shadow visits It is there one second It looks at me It comes to stand in front of me I reach out to indulge myself in its beauty It vanishes I am alone once more. I toss I turn I cannot find peace I call for my shadow I wait for an eternity There will be no answer I go back to my impossible quest for sleep once more. My shadow no longer visits I am left with only vague memories Why doesn’t my shadow want me?. He appears before me My shadow, complete, in all of his painful flawlessness I am awestruck Come with me, my love he says in a low breath It is the most wonderful melody He pulls me into his arms I embrace him passionately I kiss the face of death I am consumed once more. Fin. |