Something New

for god’s sake, she said
show me something
else.

all you ever do is
eat
drink
sleep
smoke
fuck.

and not even me.

those girls you
“see”
those “meetings” you
attend.
i know what you’re doing.

whores
drugs
sleeping
and more
whores.

where did it go?
your creativity, your
drive
your will to make it
big.

your poetry, it was
beautiful.
your stories, they were
moving.

you were
bright
talented
handsome
someone.

but now, you’re just
fat and
lazy.

and for god’s sake,
she said,
stop letting me down.

i loved you.