I Am Sorry (in the book)

I am sorry for the pain I have caused

I am sorry for not wanting been there though I was

I am sorry I did not care

I am sorry for my disloyalty

I am sorry

I am sorry

I am sorry


Please understand,

I did not love you

I did not care about you

I was using you

I was not myself

I was being foolish

You

You

You

Who would not fall in love with you?


You have caused me

To cry for you,

To dream about you;

To kiss you,

To touch you;

To be with you


I was ignorant

I thought sex enough

I thought a one night stand would have been the last of us

Every time I asked,

You said, "I am not ready"

When were you going to be ready?

Next year?

The next millennium?

The next generation?


I waited patiently to have you in bed

I have discovered you are more than sex

You are more than a female

You are more than a good kisser

There is more than your physical appearance

Yes, I waited for sex,

I have been loved

I did not want it but you gave it

I was a fool

Yes I was insincere,

But you never knew it


It is best for you not to know

You deserve to believe

I am in love with you