Up at Night

Tonight is especially hard for me because my ex-boyfriend, the one that I swore I'd spend the rest of my life with, is getting married this weekend. I feel torn between two decisions I must face: one letting him go forever and let him marry this woman that I don't approve of or two try and stop the wedding and put myself out there. He was the one that told me, if the circumstances were different, we'd be married. I've known him for fourteen years and in those fourteen years I've been in love with him for twelve. We have experienced many first, many arguements. Love was never an issue for us, nor passion. There are a lot of reasons why we didn't work out, but for the life of me I can't remember why any of those reasons were more important than each other. I don't understand why we couldn't fight for each other. I really thought that things would be different.