Untittled Work

I feel as though I have lived my life before. I have survived the tests and trials put before me. But why do I continue having to live the same tests and trials over and over? I have yet to learn the lesson put before me. I try to silence the many thoughts in my mind, they are never silent for long. I have survived many battles, but I have yet to survive the war. I dream of a time when my inner turmoils are quieted. I could live the life I was meant too. I feel as though I was destined for greater things. I have yet to find the strength within that would fuel my victory. I have too many regrets haunting me and holding me back from that victorious finale. Is it forgiveness that I seek, from myself could that be the key? I struggle with this every moment of everyday. I can forgive others of their transgressions against me, but I have yet to find the strength to forgive myself.