stolen hearts and whiskey breath

stolen hearts and whiskey breath
lie next to my prostrate body
infecting my consciousness
with hatred and affection
her sickly sweet perfume
clings to my nose
overwhelming the vomit
puddled  in my mouth.

i see her  loathing disgust
spilling from her lips
defiling my very existence
and setting my teeth on edge.

i try to rub her out of my skin
but she has penetrated my skull
banging endlessly inside my head
leaving me paralyzed
panicking in utter despair.

i sit up screaming for my release
disease surrounds me
filling my belly with burning regret.

i spit out her sickness
and breathe in her toxic love
staggering toward obedience
handcuffed to my obsession.

there is no escape from my mania
only a temporary reprieve
from my addiction as sleep
drowns out the dull screaming in
my head.