Loved and Lost

Loved and Lost

but lived and lost again.

The words of my life

for the past few years

My cousin murded

my great grandpa, old age took him

My mothers parents gone

the evil thing called cancer took them

Two friends i never really got to know,

tragic accident, only they know why

Almost a year of no pain

almost but not quite in my reach

A year for him was suffering

pain, hurt, and no relief

four months i watched and wished it away

The pain took him to places

I could not go as he slept.

the evil cancer was back and stole him away

My father died and took my spirit.

I loved and lost

but lived and lost again.



Most of them new God

so i know where they are.

But two i worry about

can their souls be saved from beyond the grave?

My father haunts me

and i blame myself for shutting him out,

so many years apart.

My grandparents too,

the months I spent watching them die,

seems worthless against the time I could have spent with them.

I loved and lost

but lived and lost again