Mama, I love you

"Mama! No! don't kill papa! no mama! blood...blood...blood!"
  Enma woke up with fears and tears on her face. She was sweating a lot, sweat covers her body, fear left her shaking.
    then she snap herself out of the dream: Right. I need to hurry to school, what a dreadful way to start a day.
    She walked to her school: "Another nightmare, eh? It seems that I'm getting it every night these past weeks now. Darn it! Why do I have to remember that?!
Her eyes were fierce seems like she's ready to kill someone.

The bell rang: Huh? school is over? i better go and see if grandma is home.
She went home trying to forget the dream she had but it keeps on revolving in her mind.

"Grandma! Are you home?"

"Oh, yes, dear grandma's here, come inside."

"Grandma, lately things are bothering me again, i know you know what i saw. Please tell me more about your son, papa i mean."

"okay then, your father was really a nice guy, he never got involved in bad things, he always buy you gifts and showered you with love, he loves your mama,he never lay a fierce hand to your mama,but that dreadful mother of yours is crazy and lunatic! Oh dear, sorry to say that.

shaking her head: "No grandma, papa deserves better than that murderer! i don't want to see her!"

"oh calm down dear, would you like to stay for a night, since you live alone, please care to stay over just for the night."

"I would love to grandma!"

Every single day, her anger towards her mother grew and grew. She can't forget what she had seen when she was still 5, and now she's 15 she never thought of seeing her mother, not even once...until...

At the school gate, she saw her mother standing right in front of the gate, she's sure that that woman is her mother. The lady was smiling, almost seems no problems. Enma's eyes shows anger, her fierceness is like a lion ready to eat a prey. Her mother shivered as her girl go near and near her..but the lady still smiled even though her hands were shaking.

Few seconds later, they were facing each other, eye to eye, one with an eye asking for forgiveness, the other shows no mercy.
Right before her mother attempt to talk, Enma raised her hand and with superior force hits her mother's pale cheek, tears run through her mother's face. Enma ran away, she's in tears too..her mother chased her without hesitation. People were staring, looking, but the two didn't even care to stop, until they reached the river banks bridge, this bridge does not have any handle,thus it was just a plank.

"Why are you here?!" Enma asked.

Her mother speaks no words..

"Answer me!" Enma bloated.

"M-m-y chi-ld...E-enm-a.."

"Don't you dare address me as your child!"

"Please! Listen to me! please!"

"What for!? Then hear me now, the great mother of mine who killed my father! I'm tired with all your lies! I'm sick hearing and thinking of your voice!....
  for the last 10 years I suffered....for the last 10 years I grieved...I...(interrupted).."

"Here me first!" her mother said

"no (shaking), not ever again!" Enma said abruptly.

"But, Enma"

"You dare show your darn face to me after killing my father and abandoning me without anything that will support me for 10 WHOLE years without even explaining...you show no love, no care, not even concern! Now your telling me to listen to you?!

you want to tell me another lie? you said that you love our family! you said we are the 3 great persons of our clan...now, are you trying to fool me again with your borrowed lies, telling me to listen,why? Did you even hear me when i was in tears!? did you looked for me when i wandered in tears!? Did you even wonder if i ate or not?!...

Did you even loved papa?...(soft voice)
did you even loved me?!

Her mother's tears are overflowing, Enma's face is so red and her filled with sweat and tears.

"L---listen to me.." her mother said

"no..no..no..no!" Enma said while she shook her head really fast, she's shivering.

"Please...i beg you" her mother stretched out her arms and move forward her child.

" don't go near me, or else I'll jump!" Enma said

"Please, just let me give you these." her mother handed out a letter but Enma refuses to take...

"no, I'll jump!" Enma was confused, she continued to move on the side of the plank, she didnt notice that she's already on the edge, her feet slipped and was about to fall when her mama hold her hands and forcefully pull her back, but her mother has not enough strength, she must throw her child with her body as an exchange to the position, but before she interchanged their position, Enma saw her face smiling, "if you wish to die, then mama will do the wish for you, I'll die my dear. no need for you to die as well. I love you, Dear Enma...."

Enma's mother was falling but her mother is still smiling..

"Mama! mama..no!" Enma shouted..

Her mother fell on the river, a great splash of water overlaps her mother..she was shocked for a moment...then she shouted..

"Mama, don't leave me! mama!"everything went blank on her..

She woke up inside a morgue, then a guy handed out a letter..

"We saw this on your side, where you fainted, im sorry for the lost." the guy said..

She was still shaking, she can see her mother's face pale and cold. She opened the letter and read it softly...


My dear child,
      Dear, by now you must have hated me so much, you might not even want to see a trace of my shadows. But dear let me explain...
      10 years ago, your father got involved with the syndicate and he worked for them. But he made a great debt to them and by the time they need the payment, he had no money...your papa tried to take his anger to you, but i protected you, thus he took his anger to me. I hid it to you, i don't want to see you hurt and get involved, besides you were only 5 that time.
      Weeks later,your father gone crazy, and so as well his mother, your grandma, they both began to think of crazy thoughts... They tried to sell you to the syndicate as a payment for them. I tried to stop your papa by begging. I plead and plead but he wont listen! He was about to go to your room to take you to the syndicates. That's the time my eye's went black, i grabbed a knife and stubbed it on your papa's back, without even thinking twice, i killed him...
      It was also because of the syndicates that i abandoned you, because they'll come after the two of us to asked for payment or get killed. I abandoned you for i know they'll go after me and not you, if i do that then you'll be safe. I know that its not good, but i must go to that extent because that's the only way that i could think of, we have none other relatives but your papa's mother, but it is still possible that you'll be in danger, so i choose to leave you. That was the only possible way.
      You must have suffered, my dear, and I'm so sorry, but our life is no longer in danger. I finished paying the debts. But you must not want to live with me again, that'll be alright as long as you hear me say this word: "I love you,dear, i really do, i know that you hate me, but dear i still love you"

                                                                                            Love,
                                                                                            Mama

P.S.
    Here's a check of money i saved for your college plan. Please
accept it. I know its not enough, but don't worry, mama will
think of a way. ^_^


Enma was filled with tears, she wept and wept. No matter how she covers her face, her sadness shows. She stand with the letter on her hands as she walk near to the corpse of her mama, put her hands on her mama's head and cried..."Please hear me,....Mama, i love you!"..