Love Cannot Tame the Wildest Beast...

I feel BOLD today. BOLD enough to let the world know the truth. Not the whole truth, but the truth about how I feel about this. 14 days isn't long at all. But sometimes it's all the time you need. In 14 days, you could discover China, you could recreate the Cuban Missile Crisis, you can predict what the weather will be, you can get a flatter stomach, you can quit smoking, you could even knit a scarf in 14 days. But can you convince yourself in 14 days? Convince yourself that what you're doing isn't just what you have to do, but what you want to do? Life isn't about answering questions; it's about exploring. Although I know this is what I have to do; both legally and for the best of those I love, I can't help but feel that I'm not being true to myself. TRUTH:a verified or indisputable fact, proposition, principle, or the like. INDISPUTABLE: real, valid.

The real, indisputable facts are as follows; I don't want to do what I have to. I tell everyone I know what I want in the end, when I have no idea, I just do it to try and convince myself that I know. I know how I feel about this, but I hate that I don't have the courage to do anything about it. Most important of all though? That I know I don't have to do what I'm going to, I just don't have the courage to change it, so I tell everyone I have no choice, when I know I do, and I know it's my fault. And I can't help but feel I'm going to cock up the best thing that's ever happened to me, just because I can't have the intrepidity to change things. You never have to conform to someone else, it's ALWAYS up to you, you just have to have the guts to make it. After all we make up our own fortune and call it fate.

I really wish I could go confidently in the direction of my dreams. Live the life I have imagined. But I think I'll get more chances. Because life is timeless and days are long when you're young. And although you may not think you're young, you are. And you have to take it to your advantage.

HEART; 1. the center of the total personality 2. spirit, courage, or enthusiasm.
Love wasn't put into your heart to stay. Love isn't love until you give it away. What I've found I need to give away to those I love, and they'll feel it, I know they will, because I feel it so strongly now.

And if all that's in the heart is written on the face; did you know this all along? You must have, because this is the TRUTH; the indisputable facts.