She makes me wait

This power that she wields over me. She knows what I want. She knows I will wait. She knows I can't wait. Surely she knows that? And yet, even willing to wait, I know, she is in control. I can wait, and I know, she will make me wait some more. Control? Power? Torture? Does she enjoy it? Even wanting what she won't give, I find it intoxicating. I want, can't have. She has and wants (I'm certain she wants) and yet she won't give. Yet. When? I want to show her what I feel, she won't let me. Am I selfish for wanting, is it just about me? I can wait until she's ready. Is she testing me? I can pass. I will do whatever it takes. I know the wait is worth it, but oh how I wish she was ready. Not now, not tomorrow, not next week, but soon. I can wait. I can't wait. I think she enjoys the power that she wields over me. I think I enjoy it too, but still its torture. Not knowing, yet needing. I want to be controlled. I want to do whatever she wants, but I want it now too. Would physical contact really prove my feelings? Would it maybe ruin the psychic connection? Would it make it stronger? How can I know, while still she makes me wait.