Forever and Always, Me

Dear You,

I made a promise to myself a long time ago. I promised I'd never fall in love, love causes too much pain, too much heartbreak. I didn't feel like I was strong enough to handle any more pain in my life. And for a long time I kept my promise, but then I met you. The first time I saw your smile, my heart melted, and I knew I was gone. And when you said hello I knew there was no hope for it, I would've gotten away with my heart in tact if you wouldn't have said that one word. Even today I'm glad you said it, even though my heart aches with longing. I can't regret it, can't regret anything.

My feelings for you overwhelmed me at first, actually they still do, so I tried to ignore them. Telling myself I just read too many romance novels, making me think I felt that way. But matters of the heart cannot be ignored, no matter how hard you try. When I accepted that I fell for you, hard.

Now when I look back on it I can't remember falling, all I remember is being in love. When I was around you my heart seemed to sing and a smile always filled my face. And I felt swept away, as if I were on a cloud, and couldn't be knocked off. Then on a cold rainy day you shattered my heart into a million pieces. My worst fear about love. The tears that filled my eyes, my heart, couldn't be stopped.

At first I tried to hate you, but I couldn't. I still can't. I couldn't because a part of me will always love you, no matter what happens. I wish I could ask you to come back to me, but I can't. I can't do that because if you loved me too, you'd be here beside me, not a million miles away. I hope that you'll look back on our time together with no regrets. This letter wasn't meant to turn into a love letter, but I just wanted to put my feelings out there. A wise person once told me that in order to move on, you have to admit your feelings to yourself and the person that you feel them about. So I hope by writing this letter to you, it will help me move on. Like I should've a long time ago.

Forever and Always,
Me


-This piece of writing is dedicated to everyone who has even been in love. Whether it was a love lost or a love found. Or a little of both.-

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