i blame me!!!!1

After so many heartaches and tears and barely surving through the pain.You'd think you'll be ready to leave......... But some how i must enjoy it,because the decision was all up to me. My mind has it's thoughts but my heart won't let me think! It's like i'm drowing inside of an ocean without his love my body will sink I feel so effortless!! And oh so shameless to say...... He was the lust of my nights and my dust through my day So blinded by his actions because he was doing all of the right things But i wasn't ready for the pain he was getting ready to bring......... Even threw the broken border lines and the lies hiddeen beneath the truth My lgs couldn't walkaway my heart beat for you!!!!!! If you leave could i bare it?