why ask why

She said she could never tell what I wanted
all I asked was for her to show up
She always said she would
but somehow never could
She said I used her
and I asked what was my gain
If that is the case why do I feel shame


She said I never trusted her, at one time I did
I let her put our life on the line when we were kids

She said why am I the way I am?
yet she never shows up except to sin.


What the hell am I supposed to think
he confused my head and made it hard to think


She said some of the most hurtful things to me
most of which she forgot

She said hold her hand and I did, as for two years I fought
Now I sit around listening to the minds of men
There is no escape from beginning to end
They talk as if we are items on a block
I guess we are and this I forgot

Some how this idea is related to free
yet all they can say is how they wish to control and abuse me

They give not one regard for the impact they leave on innocent minds
they pleasure infused with the smell they leave behind

I wanted to trust and let down my guards
yet not one reason was given in my hand of cards
although you were sure to let me know
our lives were in your hands so don't let go


She said trust me and even after hurt I did
but where was she? Somewhere still hid

Then they warned me of who she really was
no longer the same, watch how you give your love
She STILL try's to pull on my solarpelx
even after I stated how this made me vex

Where is the respect from you, you want me to give
you keep telling me this is the only way to live

You avoid my questions weather vague and direct
and when I make mistakes yet tell me my future is set

Then you sit and really wonder why
I seem so eager not to try

I sit and wonder who you really are
were they lying when they said keep you far
Away and do not dare trust
It used to be I would argue and make a fuss

What is wrong with this picture
where is the trust

They talk about me at the places I go
I sit quietly pretending not to know

The shrink said I am crazy but you and I know
what truth there is that we can not expose

I have nothing but the family I love
it pains my soul that they do not know
It hurts that for them they will not know respect
because the ones who violate are those I protect

It hurts that the men and women call each other names
and this way of life is all a part of the game

The next generation will come along
More lost then this one where has it all gone

What are we doing building something to protect when what we got
Is the violation almost the same as the one's we fought
This is insane, yet somewhere they say it is a must
what are we protecting and where is the trust

The ones who know more can tell, where to find a good sale
the ones who need help better not tell

Bass akwards please help me understand
cause as far as I know I have lent a helping hand

What am I helping? I wonder now
we do not wish to be tagged and made to plow

What is the plow worth what is our gain
right now the moon is red with blood stains

If what you say is true
then this is why I always ask to speak to you

I guess your shoes I will never understand
and my shoes you no matter the size you wish to expand

Will we have the choice of when and where?
Or do they come from everywhere

Will It be just that one pair of shoes that you borrowed, and so many got to wear
I will not let my used shoes be made not to care nor will I loan
another pair

Will we get to choose what dances and stages we perform on
or will you show your love with an objection as an angry storm


Will we be made to suffer in pain as you compare to child birth
all our worth gone down the drain as if the birth of life was in vein

The feeling so low of a cycle's tail spin
not being able to say no to people that abuse again and again

Not on shelves do we find our healthy food
sat outside are a supermarkets clerks blues

Inside, anywhere dare we say
food still not prepared the proper way
Any ingredients used no one cares
even though some have a special diet and it is not fair

All they think of is their bottom line
and all we think of is protecting our behind
body spirit and mind

If our goals are not aligned then we can not see
that is why the sky is so cloudy at times

Our meals were met to be prepared slow
now their sold as just grab and go
Our shoes were to be for special occasions
now any one steps on them it aint amazing

Our home should have been built on a solid foundation
even when the ground was level the contractor was on vacation

When asked for an advance simply to dress professional
I was told it would make me lazy, so no
When asked for support so we could become more self sufficient
you said we wanted to make you a slave to our living

When asked why did we not get our car
the response was I don't have time baby I'm a star
When asked are you going to leave and not come back
The answer was don't worry baby I got your back

When asked why it was you never showed?
The answer was baby your nagging is getting old.
When asked ok if help i must can you show me how
the answer was well hurry up now

When asked who do you pick to drive in your car with
the answer was they do not like me so who else? Shit.

When asked why I move away from you
It is because I don't understand your moves

When I ask you how the game goes
you said I take care of mine that's how I flow
Now your song is why do you keep trying to tax me
My answer is why do you wish to freely use our energy