I Miss You Dad

I awoke one day no longer a kid
a grown adult with a son of my own
I reach for my Dad's hand
but find that I am all alone
where did the time go
when did I become the parent
tears roll down my cheeks
realization that time had not stood still
I was now on my own in this scary world
my dad no longer around to save me
not that I was sheltered
but I now had no one to kiss away my tears
to love me even when I had done wrong
no one who could tell that I was hurting inside
without even asking he just knew I don't know why
he didn't always show it but his love i know was there
long days at work and college for him
and long days of school and getting in trouble for me
kept us apart on most days
one day I swear I was watching the little mermaid
riding a bike, hanging out with friends
the next I was working a job, renting my own place,
and raising my own kid
What happen to the days
the days my dad hugged me tight when i was sad
grounded me when I had done bad
what happened to the nights
the nights when he carried me off to bed
and kissed me good night
the times when he chased away my nightmares
and made me laugh until I cried
what happen to the time
I thought it would never end
praying like every other kid that my childhood days would end
now I look back and miss it all
no longer the child but the parent the adult
I miss my dad every day
no our relationship wasn't perfect and no we weren't friends
but he was my hero my knight in shining armor
even on the days we were mad at each other
I regret the times I said I hated him
and miss the times he said I love you
I miss my dad
I realize now the bitter truth
I thought when I was little that time just stood still
but now that I'm an adult I realize that's not true
I have my own son and my own life
I know my Daddy still loves me
but I am a daughter who misses her dad
an adult but still his child
even with a son of my own
I still want my daddy to hold me
and say I love you, and it's going to be okay
but the reality is I'm an adult and I have to make it on my own
I miss you daddy I hope you know and I know you miss me to.
Love always and forever.
Your little girl...