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i really can wonder what its all about
how I'm stuck on a hook like a trout
feeling my life floundering
wondering if i'm also drowning
because sometimes i cant breathe
i want to get down on my knees and pray
and beg my god for the day
when all of this will come to an end
if there is an end
life is what you make it
but you see life made me
i was kind and you mistook that
for weakness
i gave you none of that
i was happy
until i was beaten down
you showed me
people don't want me around
i believed in fairness
but there should be no such word
to everyone else your second or third
i believed in compassion
until i saw what people are capable to do
if you could see in my head you'd be thankful
you don't have to
know what i know
did what i do
do what i did
most of the time i feel like a grown up kid
and people continue to walk the earth because of me
but no one gets down on bended knee