Turning eighteen: Blog #1

         I just turned seventeen nine days ago and next year I'll be a legal adult. I really don't know what to say about that. A part of me is excited, but another part wants to know what the hell happened!
         My life has been nothing short of abnormal. I was adopted by my auntie. I was molested by my cousin between the ages of three and nine and my grandmother allowed it. Then I was molested by my mom's boyfriend when I was eleven and twelve. I had back surgery for scoliosis when I was twelve. I started cutting myself and tried to kill myself that same year. I was physically abused by my mom between the ages of eleven and fourteen. I graduated high school at fifteen. I was sent to a group home at sixteen because my mom told them I was eighteen.
         For so long I've wanted to be normal. Now it's gotten to the point where I just don't care about normal anymore cuz it's not gonna happen. I know I'm never going to prom or gonna be around people my own age. I know there's a good chance I'll be spending my eighteenth birthday in here instead of going out partying.
         And I'm wondering what happened because my life shouldn't be like this. I shouldn't have gotten so cheated out of my childhood, but it's too late to get it back because I'm a young adult now. And now that I'm turning eighteen, I really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I used to go to college, but I dropped out yesterday. It just wasn't the right school for me. I want to be a writer, and the school doesn't have any English majors. I wanna go to school in California, at Los Angeles Vally College, but there's no way to get there.
         Staff here still take me to school. They don't know I dropped out and the good LORD better not let them find out! I live in a crazy inviornment, any chance i get to get away, I'm gonna take it! I know I'm getting out of here as SOON as I turn eighteen, but I have no idea where I'm gonna go. I just know I can't stay here.

Until next time,

Capri Rogers