Wondering

I don't know where am I
one second in a fantasy
the other in a cruel reality
seeking freedom
wanting to feel what they call
"Sweet Life"
sometimes I think it's somewhere that I cannot reach
others I feel it's just away to make hope
where sweet dose not exist
or is it just me who can't find away to live
maybe I just misunderstood
I might as well be in a dream
can you really find which part of yesterday
was reality or dream
usually I find myself living that one day twice
I don't know if I'm crazy
or that how life is??