My One Last Cry

Someday all of these things that happened between us  will pass and only the memories will be left behind... for us to treasure and remember. I will never forget the first time I saw your face... I know there is something mysterious in your eyes. As time goes by I got to know you... there has been more of you than meets the eye. And that made me love you more . This is the strangest relationship I ever had in my life. If only I could change the world and make it upside down maybe I will have the chance to be with you now. Loving you in this strangest way was so hard for me to do.
Making love with you this way is not easy but ... this is the easiest way and comfortable way to do right now. I did this all out of love to you.
I don't want to disappoint you... I want you to be happy all the time. I don't want to see your sweet smiles fade away. Someday, when all of these are gone, I just want to remember that somewhere in time and in the strangest way we have loved and got to know each other.
For now... I always want to tell you that... I love you so much... more than words... more than actions...

Perhaps by now, you have forgotten those sweet memories we shared and I am the one who was left behind reminiscing the past. Moving on is the hardest part of saying goodbyes... I was just caught unaware of the fact that you have left me so soon and at the time that I can't afford to let go of you.
You will be forever in my heart no matter what. I know from the start that you will affect my life this way, likewise that I knew well , ours will not lasts for long.
The hurts, the pains and the tears ... these are the things that keep me company... I am deeply hurt and in so much pain because I was deeply in love with you.
Maybe your words and actions, I mistook it for love. But there is nothing to worry, because  I love that mistake.
I know someday, somehow I will find a way to move on but not to forget the feelings I once had for you.
Time heals... but the memories and feelings I felt for you will stay in the  innermost part of my heart.

And again , I want to tell you that ... I will always love you...
I love you so much baby.