Now Shut Your Mouth

thoughts are spinning up and down
heart is yanked out by the clown
simmering sadness, I won't let it boil
my hideousness leads me to recoil

yes, I have kids. Now shut your mouth
I live up north, they live down south
this happened over years of drinking
mommy's drunk so she's not thinking

about her babies crying for time
passed out on the couch I forgot they were mine
the disease has taken full control
wanting to die, letting them go....