where did my happiness go?

"Where did my happiness go?" is what i keep asking God!!
Standing in my balcony I see kids playing happily,
their faces do not have worries.
It is like they are given all the freedom - even if they make mistakes they are forgiven.

No more does my face show happiness and child-like innocence is lost.
I am stuck with large-sized problems.
It's true as you grow up intensity of sorrow increases.
And I ask God that why was my only happiness taken away.

My family is not together. They fight like cats and dogs.
I do not know how to stop it and that is why I left it to God.
My faith in Him will never die.

There is gravel in everybody's voices.Their ability to understand is lost.
No one is ready to compromise. If it was like that,if fights in families have such a bad effect on children
then probably we should not have been born; because this just ruins our lives and disturbs us mentally.

As one grows up , there is more understanding of what is happening.
Maturity comes, giving us the realization that our happy childhood is lost in the dark..forever.
It will never return. We learn to live in our own 'hell' of problems.
Where did all my happiness go? That is what I keep asking God