Lost in my own head

A quiet riot in my head
A tragedy for a brain
Something has got to be wrong up there
Because I can feel myself slowly going insane
Numb all the time
But hurt all the same
Anger, hatred, pain
Again and again and again I pay
Why?
Whatever have I done
To make these enemies trample me
One by one?
Broken forever?
God, I hope not
If anyone is even looking out for me anymore
I'll surely be impressed
Because they must be hidden pretty good,
For I can't find them
Like I'm under house arrest
Lost in my own brain am I?
Why wont you ever try to help?
Is there nothing worth saving
No one left in here to help?
Help.
Please,
I don't even know whats wrong
You all ignore me as I scream
Just see a happy quiet face
Hidden underneath
I'm full of disgrace
Longing, for closure?
Maybe
But its not worth it.
Nothing is worth it
Life is barely even worth it
Everything good is gone
It will never return to me
For I am always going to be broken
Lost in my own head,
For eternity.