Heart Stab

What is this feeling?
Rushing through my body,
Over my head,
Through my ears,
I can hear it clear as rain,
And the scent?
So pure, so warm....
But,
No, no, no.......
I'm not supposed to.....
That dream.....
That thought.....
My dear that dream....
It was wrong, then,
It's just a sin now.....
But still,
My heart beats,
It flips around you,
Screaming..........
Just once it says, just once,
But just one time will be the death of me.............
Oh please,
Give me the strength to fight,
Please,
Give me the strength to stab out this one wish.........
To forget the thought,
And the dream........
Just stab my beating heart and be done with it...........