"The war"

You left me in the streets,
Hungry for the warmth that'll never come,
Now, alone and beat,
I stand still in my cracked world,
Like a thousand daggers that hurt my heart,
I thought we'd never be apart,
I thought you'd be there for me,
I should've saw the signs,
That signify you were going to leave,
Now broken and hurt,
I will never allow myself to hope,
Because in the end, i don't even know how to cope,

Awake and alive,
I've already made up my mind,
In my body and mind,
I'm fighting for the chance to pick myself again,
But everytime i look at your picture,
I can't shake off the feeling of despair and in my heart, awakens a stir,
Awakens an ache,
Which right now, i don't appreciate,
I can't handle all this pain inside,
I'm at war and i can't confide,
not right now, not ever,

The war is intense,
Now more tahn ever, i can't let my feelings of you win,
To get in the way,
I need to hold them at bay,
And make them disappear,
Because if i don't, it'll kill me tonight,
And all my worst fears of never being with you will win,
And that, is the greatest sin