Gone Maybe...

I thought you were gone
Just the subject of a million maybe love songs
Was I really so very wrong?
That my feeling for you is so dreadfully strong

Today I looked upon your vision
I couldn't make that decision
If to what my heart was telling me I should listen
Or be logical and absolutely dismiss them

You mean to me a thousand billion different things
But not reveal what I am in heart and my darkest feelings
To run at the sight of you is all that my love for you means
But why then could I see us exchange wedding rings

What is it when I simply think of her, that
Alone can make me walk into a wall
Am I to so often act her doormat?
Whenever I notice her to trip and fall

May it be?
That what I see
Is more than I think it would be?
Am I missing a lifetime opportunity?

I hope that one day we'll both find our loves
Of course I know it won't be like two doves
And I know we'll each have our different pushes and shoves
But... but I wonder if perhaps we won't have ever any others' love