to be yet not know it

whatever it was it came and went fast, like a dark spectar slithering accross my brain and leaving me chilled to the bone.
if this is what psychotic episodes are like i beleive i just had one, i went downstairs and later my mom told me she did not know who i was, i was a completely different person...i am taking medication but is'nt it strange and interesting and in a way beautifull how powerfull the brain is...what triggered all of these chemical imbalences, are they invironmental or inate hereditary disfunctions passed down deep through the melecular gene pool...is it a deformity or some form of evolution...free form evolution, free jazz, none predictable, non linear.other worlds melding into this one...am i expereinces ancestral memory trips...my ancestors chaneling through me somehow becaus i am more reseptive to the energies due to my dissorder...when i wake tomorw i will be myself but myself could be me from another dimension, some form of paralel being who got through on some sort of wave lenght and is living his regular life not knowing he has invaded anothers mind.the potential for the brain is limitless. i have expereince such deep penetrating thought that i frighten the person i was speaking to becau i was in their minds somehow...i dont know what i did and have not been able to do it since,,, i dont like the fact that i invaded her private thoughts but the act itself is quite incredible..does it confirm the collectiv unconcious..that if we all try hard we can all be on the same mental metaphysicial planes

sorry for rambling...i just recently snapped out of it, noticed that i was writing under a name and from an email that iv never herd of....i guess some sort of cnclusion is in order to the chaos above ummmmmmm hahahahaha wow......hmmmm this other me does things that i dont know about..that is interesting, i have an email acount in my name that i canot access...what goes on when it takes over, what happens to me does he have a completely different network of friends..have a went out and met ppl who know him but its me and if i were me i would not know them but becaus im him i recongize them...what would happen if i saw ppl who knew me i did not know them but they swear we are good friends...what a mind trip it is to be and to not be at the same time..a while other twist on shakespear for you to chew on