Clear and Blurry

Its clear to see when everything is blurry
I lay here feeling free and uncaring
Uncaring if ill ever be understood
Laying here with the blood pouring from my body
The room spins yet things are still clear
Then I remember the pain
Pain from a mom who beats me
A mom who doesn't care for me
She yells and demanded me to clean the house
Why me? Why was I put here for her to beat on?
I want my dad back
He's the best
He left me here with her
I dont hate him for it nor do I blame him
I want to join him so bad
Please let me go and be with him
He's the only one that cared for me
Well other then this blade