How I Wish To Hug Reality.

"how i wish to hug reality,

& escape this handful of diversity,

it is as if I have signed a treaty,

obligations obliging me with this my duty,

all my knowledge appealing to no faculty,

all my values appealing to no normality.

but they call this reality & it's no one's faulty,

like this is a no sided road with no density,

for density matters not where scarcity rules the county,

my head spinning for my treaty with duty stands no bounty,

but 'how to' is what pushes my head next to negative mentality,

approaches of approaching my every approach falling to every negativity,

it's unemployment on it's zenith over-ruling every positivity,

i wonder how i landed on this ground zero which defies every rule of gravity,

dreams i had,plans i had,all falling to complete impossibility,

is this a wrong turn punishing me next to insanity,

is this my pride making me into a pity,

but this same pride keeps the fire burning some where deep my sanity,

for a harsh reality is awaiting me down the road waiting for my finity,

but am a tough one & a survivor next to infinity,

am gon hug it & surprise this my harsh reality,

am gon make lemonade out of it & it gon be fruity,

i can hug whatever that kills me not for death is my only terrosity,

and stronger i will become for i'll hug this reality,

But until then,it's still a wish ...............never the less"